I have a story I want to share with you - a story of God’s breathtaking provision and goodness. This story is personal to me, and gives you a glimpse into what’s going on behind the scenes in my world, but it’s also for those of you who need a reminder that God always comes through. It’s for those of you who are in transition and need to believe that He is going ahead of you and working everything out for your good. It’s for those of you who are considering taking a step of faith but are afraid that God won’t meet you in the middle of it. The Bible says that the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy, so may my testimonies of what He is doing in my life prophesy to you that He will do the same for you.
Have you ever faced an impossible situation, knowing that without a miracle from God, you would not see the fruit of your heart’s desire? That’s where I found myself in the fall of 2017. Within a span of eighteen months I had lost my Dad and the two only grandparents I’d ever known. I’d moved my parents out to be with me in California, so at least Mom and I could be with Daddy when he passed. But my grandfather and my grandmother had passed back in Texas without the chance for me to see them one more time. I am an only child, and unmarried, so my family was small to begin with, and rapidly shrinking with the loss of these three crucial members. This season of my life was the hardest season I’d ever endured; the pain and loss at times felt unbearable, insurmountable. I’d built a life in California that now felt impossible to leave. One night I tuned into Fixer Upper, and burst into tears as I saw the bluebonnets and the rolling hill country of my upbringing. I missed the land, the people, and familiarity of it all. I felt like an alien in a foreign world, tied to this life that I’d built. I wanted to go back to Texas, but I didn’t know how. My business was in California, four years old at the time...how could I uproot and move what God had blessed here? The even bigger obstacle was my Mom. I had moved her and my Dad out to be with me in California two years before (which was itself an impossible feat). In that time, her dementia had worsened, and we had mourned the loss of my Dad and my grandmother. Mom was teetering on the brink of serious depression, and her dementia seemed to be progressing more and more each day. Our only family was back in Texas, and I longed to have their support (while she still remembered them) as I cared for Mom each day in my home. Conventional wisdom would say that she would not bounce back from another life altering event like a cross-country move. I knew that I could not afford any greater loss or deterioration in my precious Mom; I had to do what was best for her, so I didn’t ask God about it because it all just felt so big... and impossible. Instead, I came to terms with the fact that this would be my life: in a land not my own, in a state with strange laws, in a city without a HomeGoods.
Then in September of 2019, after being homesick for about two years, through a series of mind-boggling, unmistakable, bold signs and confirmations, God began to speak to me about returning home. As some of you know, I grew up in Austin, Texas, and lived there most of my life (working as a nurse) until 2010 when God brought me to Redding, CA to attend Ministry School. I came out of obedience, uncertain of what was to come, or what I was being prepared for. My time in California brought a deep hunger for more of Jesus, an increased awareness of and desire for the supernatural and prophetic, and some truly life-changing relationships. That season also birthed my business, The Crowning Jewels, which I started by myself in October of 2013. As we enter the new decade, a little over six years later, we are currently a team of nine. God has truly blessed TCJ as we’ve set out on a mission to call the identity out of those we cross paths with. Over the years we’ve built something unique together, speaking life over many and offering words of hope to thousands, all through the vehicle of beautiful jewelry. It has been the adventure of a lifetime, and it’s (at least part of) what I’m made for.
In recent months, as I pressed in to discern what God was revealing to me, I knew that He was highlighting Fort Worth, TX to me (instead of Austin). He knew that it was the deep desire of my heart to be close to family again, and although I was concerned about how a move across the country might affect my elderly mother, through prayer I felt the Lord’s peace in my spirit in a way I hadn’t before... and I decided to trust Him. My Mom has dementia, and I knew that we only had a window of time to move while she still knows our family. We don’t have a very large family, but the family we do have is in Fort Worth. My entire life I had never lived in the same town as my family (other than my parents), and I longed to strengthen the connection that I had with them, building a life together, even restoring the years that had been lost. One of the most heart-warming confirmations (and sweet kisses from God) regarding this move was the fact that my dear friend, and TCJ’s Creative Director, Bethany, also decided to move her family back home to the Dallas/Fort Worth area at the exact same time! She was one of the first people I hired in 2015, and it meant so much to me that we would be able to make this transition together.
In early October, I took a scouting trip, and on this trip where I hoped I’d discover the neighborhood I wanted to live in, I found my dream house instead! God’s goodness overwhelmed me! I could hardly believe that this house was only four minutes from my family and I would be even closer to Mom than I am in Redding! In like fashion, everything just began falling into place. Let me take a moment and encourage you here, that when you step out in faith and believe, God’s goodness will blow you away, too. Even if you’ve faced disappointment in the past, may your heart come alive with hope, even now, in His goodness toward your future.
When this goes live, my mom and I will have just set our feet on Texas soil - a place where we have deep roots, and where my heart finds rest. As I have stepped out in faith, I’ve also discovered how God was lining things up for my business in Texas the whole time. In the beginning it was scary to think about trying something new, but in time God and others confirmed our decision to expand in my home state. Our business ships more product to Texas than to any other state in the US, so we know that our jewelry and our message really resonates with the people there. Some of our biggest fans are there! (And if you’re a Texan and you’re reading this, stay tuned at the bottom of the blog for some new and exciting ways you can connect with us!) We are excited that this will be a time of developing a new arm of the business.
In celebration of this new season of my life I designed a brand new style that I think you’ll love, and it’s available for a limited time only in the Founder’s Collection. I have been wanting a short, chunky necklace for some time, and I have absolutely loved wearing this new piece! It also has deep meaning for me, chronicling what God has done in this season as I move across the country, back home. I think the meaning will resonate with many of you too, as a prophetic statement of what God is doing in your life right now.
For this new symbolic piece, I chose the word “home,” because in a natural sense I’m moving back to the place I’ve lived most of my life, and the place where I have deep roots. It’s also a sweet reminder to me that I always have a place at “home” in God. Just as the word “tabernacle” means that God dwells with us, we also dwell in Him. “Home” reminds me that my constant dwelling place is in Him, just as He has chosen to dwell in you and me. There is a sweet invitation and grace for those that have turned away from Jesus during this time to walk back into his loving arms.
The hummingbird charm represents the idea that nothing is impossible with God (Luke 1.37). Did you know that hummingbirds are the only birds who can fly backwards? As I began to hear the first whispers from the Lord about this move, it felt impossible. My business is in Redding, and it didn’t feel wise to move my Mom at this time in her life. But, God! As only He can, He started lining things up, and the important things that I needed began to fall into place. When I talk to Mom about moving back to be near family, she says, “Let’s go!” He’s tenderly worked it out as only He can. I believe that He’s making the impossible possible in your life as well. And - I have a joy-filled update a little over one week in Texas. Mom has made improvements since being here and getting to see family (more than just me) on a regular basis! I never could’ve dreamed it would be possible.
The leaf represents transition or a new season. This is definitely a new season, as we pack up to move across the country! Although transition can be challenging, scary, and stressful, it also brings with it the promise of something new, and hope for the future. God has met each uncertainty in me with fresh grace and hope. Are you also in the midst of transition? How is God meeting you with grace and hope?
The word “more” to me represents Ephesians 3.20, “...He is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.” It reminds me that as we step out in faith to trust Him, He meets us every single time. And quite often, it’s better than we hoped. It doesn’t mean that it won’t be hard sometimes, but that God’s goodness is ever-present with us in the transition, and He, by His very nature, is making a way where there seems to be no way.
The circle with a crystal is one of my favorite charms that we use. Not only is it beautiful, but it represents the desires of our heart. I believe that God places our desires within our hearts just like this crystal is laid within this disc. As we walk out our own journey of faith by His side, He meets us. Psalm 37.4 says, “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” He knew (before I knew) that in my heart of hearts I really wanted to return home. Even as things started unfolding, I didn’t know that I was ready to leave Redding, but God did. He knows the end from the beginning, and He’s working things out for you and for me.
Does this blog resonate with you? Say these declarations in faith, and partner with what God is doing in your life.
- I have a home prepared for me by Jesus, and I am always at home with Him.
- Nothing is impossible or too hard for God.
- God is able to do exceedingly more than all I could ask or imagine.
- God wants to give me the desires of my heart as I delight in Him.
- God goes before me and is working all things together for my good.
Also available for a limited time, the Coming Home Bracelet. Click the image below to shop!
Located in Texas? Although TCJ’s production team and our flagship store will remain in Redding, CA, we will be expanding our wholesale arm of The Crowning Jewels in Texas! There are so many wonderful ministries and churches in the Dallas/Fort Worth Metroplex, and we are excited to connect to you through partnerships. We will be seeking opportunities to have our jewelry in boutiques, church bookstores, women’s conferences, and pop-up shops throughout Texas. We are excited to dream about some local events for those of you who are in Texas, too! If you would like to be one of the first to partner with us in a way that I’ve mentioned here, please contact us at email@example.com. Also, if you are interested in having me speak to your women’s gathering or other event on identity, hearing God/the prophetic, changing careers, or another topic please email us there as well.
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Written by Anne E. Ballard